The thoughts in my head
Overwhelm my conciousness
Bound to the emotions that holds Me down
Pulling me closer and closer
My reality is found in my head
Playing with my own emotions
Is the plague that sickens me every time
My self loathing is drowning me making me gasp for air
I do not seem to exist to myself
Let alone the people around me
Picking myself apart into a lifeless skeleton
Who knows what comes next
Who knows if God will be there to help me
Abandoned my faith
For lack of an answer
My thoughts are the scariest Things I've ever witnessed
Another day
Another struggle
Too deep in my head
Finding my affection in the pity of others
Abusing the care of everyone I know
My inner demons
Use me as their puppet
Taking control of my emotions
I'm tired of Keeling over
Screaming because of the twisting in my gut
Vomiting my emotions on the innocent
I don't deserve this life
No one deserves it
But why do I do it
This is why I always find myself alone
With the antipathy in my head slowly killing
Tearing at my face
Slowly taking me away
Fading away from a world once loved
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